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Tuesday, December 12, 2006

I don't feel as if I can title this post today. I feel that it's best to leave it untitled. After a long battle with cancer, my boyfriend's aunt (Mom J's sister), passed away this morning. It's been a long and hard four months since Aunt G was diagnosed in August. She was well-loved, and there were many family members and friends keeping vigil at her bedside. She was a beautiful and brave woman, and she will be missed very much. Her grandson was born yesterday morning, and she was able to hear the news and lifted her hands in joy.

I had my sock knitting in my coat pocket, and I knitted in the waiting room, I knitted in the hospital room, I knitted in the cafeteria, I knitted in the half-dark, standing among the many friends and relatives who came to see Aunt G and tell her that they love her. I noticed a bag with yarn in the room; it belonged to Aunt G's other sister, Aunt P, who said that she didn't know what she was going to crochet with the yarn, only that she needed to have it with her. Knitting or crocheting does help. It soothes; it calms. It gives you something to do when you don't know what else to do. I only wish I was knitting something that I could have given to somebody there who might have taken comfort in knowing that this knitted item was knitted with love and surrounded by Aunt G and all the love in the hospital room.

Knitted objects have a tendency to serve as memory books, and one look, one feel, can shore up every minute of your life that was spent knitting those objects. Next time, instead of merely taking my knitting with me, I will choose my knitting carefully.

I am going on a yarn-diet for the next six months. The money that I would have spent on yarn will instead be donated in Aunt G's memory to the American Cancer Society.

With love,
the Lone Knitter

8 comments:

K. said...

What a sad time for you and your boyfriend's family. My sympathy is with you all, I know how hard it is to watch someone you love succumb to cancer. I will remember your family in my prayers.

Lee said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your bf and his family. Your post brought tears to my eyes. Your plan to donate in her honor is a great idea.

The_Add_Knitter said...

You and your family are in our thoughts. I agree that knitting can soothe in a time of distress and admire your resolve to make a donation to the American Cancer Society. Perhaps you could knit something for the new baby? I am sure that it would be received with appreciation.

Anonymous said...

I'm very sorry to hear this! I hope you find some knitting that fits the right mood.

schrodinger said...

My sympathies and thoughts are with you.

Lucia said...

give my love to Patrick- i hope you guys are doing okay in light of this tragedy.

lovelucia

Gingersnaps with Tea... said...

So sorry, I've lost family members to cancer and there really are no words. My thoughts are with you and yours.

Mom J said...

Dear Jen, During my Sister's illness on the long nights in the hospital, knitting brought me some comfort, the rhythm of the clicking needles broke the extreme quiet. I did three baby blankets for the two newest family additions born during Aunt G's last hospital stay. I love your idea of a wool diet, which gave me the idea that I would like to start knitting blankets in her memory for cancer patients and donating them to the hospital where Aunt G was treated with gentleness and love. Perhaps other knitters would like to join in. Blankets can be of any size, unfortunately cancer strikes all ages. A cozy blanket will offer not only warmth but comfort.